I wish this was when I was a kid because my parents didn’t know enough to get me ready for when my mom died or have therapy afterhand, because I am very autistic and many things went wrong and now I am schizoaffective as well because I didn’t heal my traumas and that got entangled with magick thinking in the lonely days after school and holidays and stuff.

8 qn the info

Now God threatens me with how they ALL, including my life partner set me up. I’m not good enough for anything. What? Grandma? She’s ded

I love the talks with my life partner about the inner depth of the universe and the emptiness beyond. I hate when he doesn’t listen to me about something that I know is a good insight. I also hate when he outright shows coldness. I do that sometimes. I understand we are so good for each other for we are good archetypes that fit together. He doesn’t do small talk sometimes, and he lies about the stupidest things to cut small talk to nothing. But I love him. He’s special, and I’m just happy someone understands my crazy so well.

I talk about the big of talk when the talking go to flow about the ways this those do go the ways God did intendeder

Poem’s title is Nervana. It’s about what I learned in my strange life to relate to what the Buddha said.

Bro, this is what I can do after twelve years of writing 2k-7k words per day:

That was on my X account that got deleted for stating my sexuality AS WELL AS being a troll. I can explain the poem in plain language, if you like.

You shouldn’t snoke electrolytes bro. Those are for the empathetic system.

Eat a whole turkey and see what happens. Glaze it, even

Bro if you can eat ice cream and not enjoy it, you need to slow down or get the porcupine outta your urtethra.

I don’t speak Quebec

Nah nrah, if you can’t investigators I dont give af about speaks

And I just want to make sure you understand.

A cop would neeeever do what I do.

This does not say “…and everyone who loves TO practice lying.”

…but I’m just a dog AND a sorcerer, whatever those are, and us plus the undercover cops down there have the sinners surrounded.

…you idoltarer…

Yea, us cops are the problem, not the one who defaults to committing assault, but I just say that to illustrate how your base nature will fail you in this POLICE STATE, cuz I tot3s ant a kop

There has already been someone to quip “take your meds” as thousands have over the years have, and I’m on them, so that has an innate triggeringness to it, but I see your kindness. Thank you.

And this is the internet’s reminder for the 1300th time, I am, and I am going to talk with my one doctor to get off this one seizure medication that has some benefits to bipolar-related disorders, but I will take it until I get switched. I’m on all my other meds. This is just how I am. I told my ROTC cadre that my nonexistent sister got me pregnant because I judged the wrath of my father more of a threat than the United States Military, and now I stare at goats, which is a cultural reference, but at the same time, I am a genuinely hurting, in pain, agony, hell on Earth type human being, you judgmental savage.

Thank you :)