Reading internal family systems by Richard Schwartz, watching videos by sadhguru, taking time to try to follow the threads of “intrusive thoughts,” by trying to sit in them while focusing on my breath and trying really hard not to think in words, trying to listen to myself rather than talk to myself in my head.

I do also see a therapist, and he helps talk through things that paralyze me from making decisions.

emacs is keyboard shortcuts turned into computer is magic

Good effort. I feel the dream, and it’s so much more. Life ain’t good, it’s a FUCKING lot, and there’s some good. Don’t search, just feel yo. FEEEEeeeEeEl.