I am feeling pretty detached at the moment. Figure I would use this space to think aloud.

I have been fighting with admin at my school for proper support for me as a teacher and for help fixing a broken program for my students. I got laid off effective the end of the school year. Think it might be because I was a pain in the ass, but I don’t know for sure. I wasn’t doing a great job because they overloaded me. More different classes than most teachers. Shit support.

Covid money ran out, they had to lay off some of the conditionally certified teachers and I was one of them. The timing was just… all my complaints, I they were making me cover a position that was vacant while doing my regular teaching, and the students were missing out. I don’t think I could prove it but it feels like they got rid of me because I was not satisfied with their answers.

I can’t bring myself to finish getting my teacher certification. I’d have to go out of county to teach.

I worked 10 years with the homeless, burnt out and fucked it up. Then 2 years working for a law firm supposedly helping people and figure out its just bullshit, helping people was incidental and barely helped. Worked for the cops supposedly helping addicts in person, they just wanted me to do data entry. No idea what I should do.

It took a lot of courage to get myself to try being a teacher. 3 years at the schools and now I fucking again have to figure out what to do all over again.

And I have to go into the school for over a month and pretend everything is okay. Fuck I hate this.

  • Today@lemmy.worldEnglish
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    8 months ago

    Schools are really tough right now. A teacher friend was in an inpatient psych unit for a month and said a fourth of the people there were in education. Apply at another district now so you can have a job in the fall if you want it. Every district is different and the mood always changes year to year with staff changes. Spend your summer looking at different options and decide in August.

      • Today@lemmy.worldEnglish
        2·
        8 months ago

        I was thinking about you today. Everyone at one of my schools is fighting. My own building is in a clusterfuck of stupidity and total lack of communication. I hope you had a good day. 16 more wakeups for me! How many do you have?

          • Today@lemmy.worldEnglish
            2·
            8 months ago

            Our new special ed director proposes big changes for next year, but only gives partial info, which just leaves everyone stressed. We’re losing a shitload of people and we’re already shorthanded. 13 days - You can do it!!