I guess that’s why they say that the best decisions leave everyone unhappy…

Thank you for your kind words, sincerely! This will haunt me, though…

Thank you for bringing this up, I honestly have no issue with maintaining a friendship, but I don’t know if she could take it emotionally. She looked distraught yesterday, which told me things were solidifying for her as they should have for me. She may have even confirmed that she was thinking of trying to be intimate during our vacation, but it’s honestly just a painful blur right now and I’m not sure.

I didn’t even mention this possibility, I thought it would be cruel seeing how badly she took the break-up. I just told her that I am not closing up toward her and asked her to give herself time. That’s all.

Thank you, I thought about this option long and hard, but I honestly don’t know if things could be turned around in me. I haven’t been afraid of harming her, only of pressuring her in any way. I even asked her from the start to point out anything unbecoming from my end, without hesitation, but she never had a reason because I tried as best as I could to not give her one. I always default to gentle and attentive when it comes down to the physical part of relationships and I know that I could have taken it as slow as she would have needed.

To add to this, I really don’t want this to turn into an off-and-on thing, I’ve been through several of those and they are horrid…

Thank you for this. Oh, God, I hope I won’t have to do this to anyone else ever again…

Thank you, I keep telling myself this over and over again, but it feels like trying to douse a house fire by pleading with it. I truly do feel heinous to know this is the conclusion to all of the appreciation I felt and feel toward her. She may have been the all-round nicest person I’ve met to date, and I ended up doing this to her…