Lists of crisis hotlines across the world: (Crisis Hotline) https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Crisis_hotline#Telephone_counseling
(Helplines, Suicide Hotlines, and Crisis Lines from Around the World) https://www.therapyroute.com/article/helplines-suicide-hotlines-and-crisis-lines-from-around-the-world
If your will to live is to “win” against other people, I’m glad it keeps you going. But surely you can imagine that not motivating everyone?
You for example, meliaesc, are a black box to me. I will try to find out who is the person I am talking to on the web and search for their posts just to understand what is going on. Who they really are and what’s their motivation. How they function and what values they have. Just to have a context in which I can interpret the message that otherwise is ambiguous. What is the real intent here?
Only through years passing by, trial and error and reasoning from the past I have learned that this is maybe not the usual style of thinking. That this inability to imagine what is going on in somebody’s else’s head or if anything was actually quite problematic a lot of times. Creating unnecessary divisions, sometimes even drama.
I have a natural ability to spark controversy that can be only restrained by carefully following most stringent of codes but I don’t bother with that on the web :)
Everything about human perspective, all physical senses and complex abstract thoughts, are based on pattern recognition. In computer science specifically, those patterns are discrete, absolute, pure (same output for a given input). It’s a tiny tiny representation of the universe with clear rules that can be manipulated easily.
The mind, however, has an infinite number of variables affecting each person differently. Some people naturally pick up on these patterns, we call it empathy. As social herd animals, it helps to understand other people’s general intentions without all the research, so that we can share resources and avoid danger or conflict. Other people don’t have that particular rulebook, but more easily pick up on mathematics or languages, or coding, whatever it may be.
Life at all is ridiculous as a concept, so the fact that not everyone experiences it the same way is a fact, our genes and life experiences makes it impossible to all be the same. So your ability to spark controversy is just people not understanding your set of patterns, while you don’t understand theirs. Its not wrong or right, just a fact. And it’s up to each person to decide how much they want to be able to socialize with any given rules.
I have problems imagining how other people think to begin with. That’s why I stick to programming. that’s way easier puzzle to crack than the extremely complicated human society. I prefer variables and functions to constant guessing games
I declare a constant and it has a logical and predictable purpose. That’s quite beautiful
Give me a random person and I am unable to even conceptualize what they think about me or if they think anything at all or even that they are indeed the same conscious people as me. It blows my mind on those rare occasions when I realize that someone sitting in the car nearby is actually an independent person.
So to answer your question. No I don’t think I can imagine that to be honest.