My worst ones, I black out and come to in a puddle of sweat, shaking and crying.

Usually, its more like I’m at the top of a rollercoaster. My insides clench up like I’m waiting for the guillotine to drop. My eyes fill with tears, shaking, etc.

I loved his appearance on “Inside of You with Michael Rosenbaum” (Lex from Smallville). He want political there, but very personal and open about his Bipolar disorder.

Krita rocks!

After reading your post body, I realize this isn’t what you’re looking for, but at least for honorable mention reasons:

https://openlearning.mit.edu/courses-programs/mit-opencourseware

Full disclosure: am a guy.

Holding your breath allows you to tense up and clench more than you can while breathing. Taking a deep breath eliminates some “tensing” muscles from the equation. Still, with some effort (or anxiety, probably) you can still clench up while breathing.

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New post or as an edit to this post? I think doing an update would be good. Just have to sit down and think it through.

No idea, but it could be the account I used (my friend in Belize) is compromised. The charges are coming from PSN. I’ve checked, And it’s not him

Unless something changed recently, Google Play has always accepted my privacy cards. I have one saved now a my family payment method on my Nvidia Shield account.

Don’t use Apple products, so can’t speak to that.

I live at my mother’s place after I imploded living abroad (and my father got vascular dementia) two years ago in August.

She is a constant nag, narcissistic, dark empath and hoarder.

She was gone for a week, and I haven’t felt so relaxed since I moved back. That tells me I need to get the f#@k out of here.

That said, my months-long hypo seems like it might finally be subsiding, and since my diagnosis, I’m more aware of who I am and how I tick. I guess I’m more “mindful” now. It’s wild to go back through my life and realize how much of it was my disorder.

On my best days, I still hate this timeline. Just know that your disdain for the cosmos may not be your BD, but reality.

Glad you are back to baseline. I’ve been hypo since April/May, but now that I am at 150mg Lamotrigine, it feels like it might be subsiding. I was actually tired at midnight last night. That hadn’t happened for months. Since April, I’ve been getting 4hrs or less sleep, about three nights each week without any sleep at all.

I have played piano off and on for about forty years, but in the past few months, I’ve skilled up significantly. More than ever. There are other areas where I’ve excelled, too. More than is normal. The problem is that I’m doing two or four things at a time. I’ve been hypo before, but this is my longest, most intense episode yet. It led to my diagnosis.

I was only diagnosed 7 or 8 weeks ago, so I’m not at full therapeutic levels yet. I may need 200mg or more eventually.

You can’t avoid all of the surveillance, but this helps a lot.

I’m back in the US for now you take care of family, but living in another country for two years was bliss except for their racist immigration staffers who openly accept bribes to avoid procedural delays (that they put in your way to punish those who don’t bribe them)…

Medical and dental was so cheap (free for citizens), and accessible. Doctors do house calls. Taxes are done automatically. School system cares about outcomes and not test scores.

They best part was watching the US implode from abroad and relishing that I was mostly unaffected by it.

Oh, and getting prescription meds can be a pain, but likely more meds are available without prescription. Ritalin and Adderall for instance. Lamotrigine too. Need antibiotics? They just ask his many days worth.

Alprazolam, isolation, talk to wife, not necessarily in that order.

Same version on android and no issues. Perhaps crest create an issue on the github page?

Been using privacy.com for years. You can enter any ZIP code, any name and the seller won’t know anything about you unless you’re shipping to your home, I guess. Some markets will see the cards as gift cards and won’t accept them, but that is rare.

I use it wherever I can, especially for services that always used to end up with a stolen CC#. The cards can be single use or locked to a single merchant. I used a single use card on PSN three years ago and still get fraudulent charge attempts to this day, but the card stopped working after one use, as designed.

All good. I’m not shitting on anyone’s choice, especially when it comes to playing Zelda which you can’t do anywhere else (except PC emulation). But I’ll always pipe up with a reminder when I see detailed breakdowns of how to get raped the coolest new console by Nintendo.

I do think its worth putting out there that my CPU/GPU manufacturer never sued anybody for how they used the product they paid for. They also can’t take my games away, or brick my hardware. But, yeah, the Switch is cool, if it was $250 and not owned by the most litigious game-related company out there.

Right. Nintendo is the best ecosystem. I’ve been PC since my 486. Never regretted it or wished I had a console. But if you’re cool with Nintendo shenanigans, enjoy. I hope they don’t brick your console for you.

I can only see his post when I reply, so adding this excerpt for others:

ICE is “doing a GREAT job, one that has to be done,” Trump wrote on his social media site.

The Republican president said that to remove criminals he claims were let into the country under the previous Democratic administration “we must be strong, tough, and smart, and we CANNOT give up one of ICE’s most important and effective Crime Fighting tools, THE TRAFFIC STOP!” Trump said, “Once we do, we are playing right into the criminal’s hands.”