Baptized Catholic, family converted to strict Christianity after that then early adulthood I considered myself agnostic.

Now I’d say agnostic Christian but that’s contradictory. Maybe spiritual? Idk

I don’t go to church and do things like that as why I say that.

I don’t like force what I believe in on other people. Common sense says that is not my place and also rude. I don’t wish to convert people. I’m not on a mission to ‘shove it down throats’

It’s the little things that show me God is looking out for me. I’ve got my own set of things im dealing with as everyone else does too.

But finding my vape (I lose it a lot) and then getting an urge to make my bed and suddenly finding it ?

That’s a miracle. Little things like that. Needing extra and then being bored decided to go through my old purses and found 100 dollars?

Those things are HUGE to me. Relieve so much stress. And they seldom happen. I’m thankful for a lot.

I’m grateful for those moments.

  • LovstuhagenEnglish
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    8 months ago

    I fell out of my Protestant upbringing for some time, and then was just something of a convinced “Universalist” that felt that God is bigger than any single religion, and that there are many pathways to him…

    I spent some time obsessed with Buddhist philosophy, and thought I found a home there, and during the course of intense meditation, I became very convinced that there is something beyond emptiness, and at this point I felt like I wanted to start over with Christianity and do it right… So I went to Orthodoxy.

    At this point, I thought all the talk of miracles from the old ladies was… not really true. I just didn’t think I’d see any miracles. It even got to the point where I even thought that it was turning me off a little, but it became apparent that, in Orthodoxy, the presence of God still in our lives and miracles continuing to happen to this day was a key aspect of the belief system…

    I accepted it, then, but largely ignored it…

    And then, on the eve of my baptism 4 years ago on Lazarus Saturday (which is actually tomorrow, FYI), I experienced a miracle…

    I was completely sober minded, 100% so, and I remember as it happened I couldn’t believe it at first, and so I literally investigated by looking around and trying to figure out how this could be happening. It was then after some time of trying to explain it to myself that I was overcome with profound peace, my mind now completely satisfied that this was happening purely to me as a gift to ensure me that yes, the miracles are real, God is real, and that now I have to walk this path.

    I’ve been a firm believer in them ever since and, it goes without saying, a firm believer in God. He’s absolutely real. And I encourage others to try to walk with God - approach him with an open mind and, during your movement toward him, abstain from all manner of sin to the best of your ability, and even fast by not eating meat or dairy products and not drinking milk. Let your sincerity pour forth…

    And if you have not had much in your life to bring you close to God, God will reach out to you in some way and you’ll know it.

    • AliceOPMAEnglish
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      8 months ago

      Thanks for this I needed it ❤️